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I missed you a lot. More than I thought i ever would. I never imagined I'd feel this kind of longing for someone, especially you. It's weird thinking you'd have such an effect on my life, or the fact that you presence in my life meant so much to me.

I love you.

we found love in a hopeless place.

i'm sorry for the things i said, the things i've done that i never meant to. i really never meant to hurt you in any ways. i admit, it was all my fault.

we all must feel ashamed, that someone could be that important that without them, you feel like nothing. no one understands how much it hurts. you feel hopeless but nothing could save you. when its over, its gone, you would wish that you would have all that stuff back. and i wouldn't want that to happen.

yes, you could have forgiven me, but i just can't forgive myself. i regret it, even though it's already too late.

thanks for all those wonderful memories that you've given me, that we shouldn't look back anymore 'cos all i want now, is to look at our future and how we're gonna make them into more wonderful memories than ever, for both of us to remember.

i'm sorry again, darling.

i'm sorry for what i've done. i think it's always been me who've been in the wrong. maybe the past and even the people around me has thought me a lot of things. i just don't want to see you hurt. there's too much things inside my head that i couldn't think of. love always hurt in a way or another. seeing my parents and siblings and my recent breakup really hurt me deep down. i'll change for the better, i promise you that i will.

there's no point for me to change my blog address or making a new one. there's no such thing as new life, there's only a new chapter. what's in 2011, is all a new chapter. 2010 and all the past will still stay in the past. they will still be part of my life, i won't deny it.

it's been two months since i abide my lappy and when i read through all my posts, it still hurts but only for a lil' bit. i'm too happy to have that special someone and friends that who cared much for me. :')

'Maybe I should give up, give in,
give up trying to be thin,
give up and turn into my mother,
god knows I love her.'

it's true.

"Best relationship is when you two can act like lovers and best friends. It’s when you have more playful moments than serious moments. It’s when you can joke around, let each other have piggy backs, have unexpected hugs and random kisses. It’s when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile. It’s when you’ll rather chill inside to watch movies, eat junk food and cuddle than go out all the time. It’s when you’ll stay up all night just to settle your arguments and problems. It’s when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are."

like us.

Sudiana Teng ♥

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Many people walk in and out of our lives, but only true friends leave footprints on your heart.

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